fattie

awww... it makes me wanna cry after reading all ur post..

ya.. sometimes.. i will tink alot of things b4 i sleep and sometimes to the extent of crying..den i will start to regret why sometime i so bad towards them.. why i din obey their words etc..

den this few days my mum asked me to pluck out her white hairs.. though onli a few strands.. but its a sign of aging liao.. coz last time she dun have it de..
and my mum last time had always brewed lots of tonic soup for us to drink.. thats why we are healthy and hair very black. but nowadays or after the birth of my nephew 2 years ago.. she cut down the frequency of doing that..

my bro n sis-in-law din put in any effort to look after their own kids.. so my mum was the one who look after him day n night.. even early in the morning also my mum got to wake up early to send him to childcare.. haiz.. why cant his own parents do all this..

and whenever she is sick, she oso got to do all the housechores, looking after my nephew etc..

whenever i tot of any day my parents may leave me.. i will cried.. coz i definitely will miss them like mad.. and regret all my wrongdoings.. but by that time will be too late.. and i always wanted to do smth for them.. but end up always doing the opposite. i was so unfilial..haiz..

i hope that i could faster step out to the society and earn lots of money for them. so that they can siang fu..